Ivy's Page
My name is Ivy and I am 11 years old. I was created during movies that were made with little kids my age. I never liked doing them and was embarrased when men saw my body naked. But I would just imagine I was a beautiful princess and pretend I was wearing a long gown that covered my body so no one could see me. I was created along with another insider named Moshie. He's got his own page to talk but he is my best friend inside. Sometimes he would hold my hand during the movies so I wouldn't be afraid. They would yell at us a lot and they would be drinking lots of beer and laughing at us. Sometimes they took regular pictures of us. My dad was there, too. He was a real mean person. The most meanest person I ever known in my life. He didn't love us and didn't want us to be around except for sex stuff. I chose the name Ivy because Ivy can grow and get away from things. That is what I wished for. To grow up and get away. I created my own insider named Celeste. She is my dream guide. She helps me whenever I have bad dreams by coming in and taking my hand and helping me feel strong and letting me know it is just a dream. She is a fairy and is very beautiful! She is ageless and very powerful. She has met some of the others in the house and they all get so tired after being around her because she is so strong. I decided to share her because I think she can help others heal like she helps me. I never want to do those things I did in the past ever again. I want the memories to stop. The therapist says the memories will always be there but they will get easier to deal with in time. I hope she is right.